Grief...

In my list of unpleasant things in life, grief is surely one of them. It is so difficult to describe it cos it has so many facets. And a person in grief hurts so much; it feels like the sadness will never let up; that your world has literally stopped moving, that the sparkle seems to have gone out of life. Grief from the loss of a loved one... I've been through a few with friends but I'll never get used to it.

Going through grief is like a ride on a roller coaster; there are so many ups and downs and they come zooming in and out. You go through an assortment of feelings; paralyzing fear, extreme sadness, dark depression, so many mixed feelings... sometimes the tears just never seem to stop coming. A memorabilia, a picture, a word, a thot... anyone (and more) can trigger this feeling of extremities.

The peace that you seek never seem to come... I wish there's more to be done... but my mind tells me that this needs time. I wish it can be sped up but I know patience is required... grief.... it strikes a chord, right to the very core of your soul.